Mom Musings: On Being a Mom of 2, Being a WAHM and Quitting My Job

As much as I wanted to say my two kids are always kissing and hugging and there's no sibling rivalry, I can't. There are days I question myself if I'm doing my job as a mom in teaching my child how to be good to her sibling.

Y is a loving achi. She kisses and hugs R when she sees me doing it. She would take her shoti's fingers out of his mouth when she sees him feasting on his fingers. She would help her papa get all the things needed for his diaper change. She would help when we're giving shoti a bath although she's just playing with the water but you know she wants to help. She'll make gigil with his shoti but despite all those, I don't think she understands the whole concept of sharing yet. She gets territorial with everything, as in EVERYTHING, including me. Most of the time distraction works on her, add a little humor there, sometimes it doesn't work at all. Can I split myself into two? I feel guilty when I give more attention to one kid than the other. How do you do it?

Y is in her Terrible Two's. She screams if she doesn't get what she wants, either that or she cries agad. Is this normal for a 2 year old? Sometimes I fear she'll become one those kids who hits other kids (because she does it to me, her yaya, her amma) Do they understand what's wrong and what' not? I've tried talking to her but she'll just smile at me, cup my face and kiss me, how would I get mad? I admit I sometimes lose patience and snap at her. I feel bad every time this happens. I don't want to be a bad mom/parent.

Sometimes I wonder if it is me being a working mom that I don't get to spend more quality with my daughter, and hinders me from nurturing my child to the best of my capability and leaving the disciplining with the yaya (which isn't the case ha, hypothetically speaking). My husband stays at home but his hands are full from taking care of shoti (because we didn't hire a yaya anymore), that there are times when he can't look over Y. All of these things are really making think twice if I should quit the corporate world and be a WAHM/SAHM instead and be with the kids. I really want to be there for my kids in their formative years. Really. Now question is, why am I still not writing my resignation letter?